unqualify...

it's meaningless when effort to pull out you from pessimistic but it become dust...useless...

some ways i think it's right but doesn't means that you can accept it too...you forced urself to be what as i wish...

but have i stop my step and see how you suffer to follow behind??maybe i put too much hopes to let you transform..get flusters when realize you can't reach my wish...

but actually...i don't have any qualification to transform you what...ya...no qualify at all...no no no!!

the efforts,the heart paid out soon get a word no qualify....why i should be such idiot??
can know ur heart is blooding,ur eyes is tearing when you said out that...but it's the same to me when i receive it..........
its sad when i feel out u are sad...the sadness is more than i sad for my own stuff.....don't know why...

erm...but it's the fact i'm no qualify....the word has a super power to stop me to do anything...any concerns,any hopes...........

VIVIAN KEE!!u are not an important character...don't think u are important right now@@wake up!!!
accept the word even though how hurt the word is.....be tough^^all will be fine~~cheer up your monkey spirit!!!!cheer up
you won't be alone...you still have monkey beside.....monkey......monkey......tough.....yeah..oVoo

haix....im waiting...

strange > close > strange

friend > best friend or soulmate > strange

argh......whats going on><

isn't all are fine~~how come become this>.<

i don't want any change...can't still for the nice moment??

why wanna change the relationship then just hurt both??

can't get it..haix......

Friendship Forever????Lol==Fake

Who knows what's called forever???And what can be forever??
LOVE??FRIENDS??PROMISES??haha...really make me laugh out loud..==
what a stupid thinking of Forever~..
Till yesterday...only i realize what's forever...its nothing is forever...
People always say love is useless...only friends can along with us all the time..
Maybe love really useless...or maybe friends really will along with us all the time...
before i really believed that even though i lost every thing...even though nobody understand me..
that's still had u as a 10 years best friend will accompany me...this illusion spoiled on yesterday..
a quarrel happened few months ago led us to be stranger..
yesterday i discussed peacefully this problem with u..my stupid thinking of could get a better ending...but its exactly different with my thinking~got a damn SURPRISE answer...
i admit that i did wrong in this matter...but impossible its all my faults what...
how can a person had such nerve to say self didn't do wrong????????
lol=.=its a pore between..tried and tired to fill it up..
when I knew there was no regretting on u,some more blaming other ppl??really disappointed...omg==
how come this world has such 不知所谓 person><
maybe u won't realize how many fault had done...cause there are too much people tolerate to u..and no one tell u the truth...impossible u know the truth,tell u just will lead to strange...i'm too stupid to be straight?or only u can be straight??
its fortunately there is a friend always reminds me my faults...thx so much...wakaka><
feel pity u don't have such friends anymore~i think u won't have so...because u can't accept..
or maybe your friend won't feel u do wrong because u are in her shadow...
u are god?if u are,surely u won't do wrong^^
or maybe u are confident to urself??XD~~~then congratulate u are the best in self thinking...
haha...the pore became a hole...but luckily i didn't fall in it...
because i understand there is nothing to say anymore....

Know A Cute Girl...

 she my friends' sister...

before i know her,she gave me a feel that she is cute even though her brothers always worry of her and think she is problems maker~????

haha...when i know,accurately shoot my my sense..she is really cute..

erm...from her,i get my before shadow...sampat sampat~haha

her words,her attitudes..all are same..

just the different between us are the body saiz@@she is very small ~30++kg only@@i think wind can blows away her~haha...thats why she need her popeye brothers protect~

she is naughty..me too..but she little bit yeng than me~mo

get know her exam results worse compare with before..worse than before me><!!omg~~

chat with her...tell her my experiences..i can get her realize and a decision to improve on next year...

i think she has a same mind with me...day by day,she will develop and independent...

sure she will be mature one day..i hope my confident and hope on her won't spoil..

She

12-11-2010 Bukit Tinggi Jusco~~

Thought will back hometown today...but the end decide get back on tomorrow...
A invitation message to watch movie at jusco@@haix...busy calling other people to join><
the end...the organizer didnt come cause of some reasons....again feel sorry..
i reached there earlier n waiting for them at popular~cant even realize they reach><omg....
I have an excited in the every gathering of us....but today my mood really little bit weird and complicated...haix
can understand that are jokes,but that not the truth what....close??i don't think so...just they always initiative chat with me in the chatbox...lol...omg....maybe u all misunderstand...it can be tolerated la>< 
thought my initiative to u all,then to other also...come on...i treat people depend on the friendships between la><
as examples,those my schoolmates we meet impossible will get it...honestly,i treat them bad..lol...they always say im cool n apathy sight to them==haix~~i don't care for their comments caused i don't think they are my real friends...thats all......can understand its just ur funny joke...not intent to tease....just ignore it?or really don't be too friendly...tolerate it........

eventhough that....we enjoy watching two movies in one day la><the cinema damn cool><make me tremble although with jacket@@
back home at 10.30pm++hoho~~~ 

11-11-2010~~Surprise to u

finally><it reached><argh~~~~
i was too panic on the one day before><omg.....slept at cousin house and suddenly woke up in midnight><
that day,i whole day no had appetite to eat><haix~~~


i reached hinhua approximate 6.45pm....kiat ming said he would arrived earlier to book seats...but i was earlier then him==~~~
scared would lost the way in hua hua....really no dare to walk in the school alone><follow Lele to the canteen...omg><^(oo)^ at there@@he discover me with a response:"ei??u come??"lol><this not i wanted to be...i planned to let them discovered me when the concert start><haix...spoil already la><but it never mind....
Some klang guys only met me when i got in to the hall~~haha...i don't know what they felt when saw me at that moment...
Enjoyed watching the concert...i no dare to send them the flowers i make in front so many audiences...until Eunice perform...they persuaded me to sent her the flower directly...omg...i did it...
At the end of the concert,i only sent the others flowers left...haix...another bouquets sctually wanna for zheyan><but her performance canceled...haix....
Enjoyed taking photos after the concert...but upset when only i knew a friend was waiting for me to take photo but i already back home...really sorry for that...


Conclusion...it was fun n awesome...i don't know is it they surprised or not...
perhaps its unimportant so..or its just redundant for alll my plannings n preparings???
or all these are negligible compare with other receiving~?maybe yes,maybe no...
Take it easy...just i was willing to do all these....

I was panic

on11-11-2010,hinhua private school organized a guitar concert...
i knew this long time ago..some of my friends would performed that day..just thought no transport sure cant go....no had the idea to go also....
until the few days before it,a klang guy..i think now he became my friend already la@@
he asked me attend it secretly to give my klang friends surprise~i thought its impossible to attend...
one night...i dreamed about i was finding the ways to attend it...lol
next day,called my cousin,Karen to fetch go her bukit tinggi house on 10-11-2010~~then i would meet another klang friend,Lele at bukit tinggi jusco...then she would fetch me go to the school...she is my old classmate's girl friend...a very cute girl...
i asked many hinhua students for the tickets...but all were sold out....what to do><luckily Lele's friend,called Eunice got  extra tickets for Lele and me~really thanks her so much><
I had informed some friends i might to attending...they helped me arranged n kept the secret...
I got to make 2 bouquets of flowers for two girls n 2 stalks for 2 boys....
This was the first time i make these><really hard....
Burnt 2 days midnite oil to prepare all of these><i was so nervous...worried they would discover my surprise plan><arr><led to insomnia...
got to make IMPOSSIBLE TO BE POSSIBLE