unqualify...

it's meaningless when effort to pull out you from pessimistic but it become dust...useless...

some ways i think it's right but doesn't means that you can accept it too...you forced urself to be what as i wish...

but have i stop my step and see how you suffer to follow behind??maybe i put too much hopes to let you transform..get flusters when realize you can't reach my wish...

but actually...i don't have any qualification to transform you what...ya...no qualify at all...no no no!!

the efforts,the heart paid out soon get a word no qualify....why i should be such idiot??
can know ur heart is blooding,ur eyes is tearing when you said out that...but it's the same to me when i receive it..........
its sad when i feel out u are sad...the sadness is more than i sad for my own stuff.....don't know why...

erm...but it's the fact i'm no qualify....the word has a super power to stop me to do anything...any concerns,any hopes...........

VIVIAN KEE!!u are not an important character...don't think u are important right now@@wake up!!!
accept the word even though how hurt the word is.....be tough^^all will be fine~~cheer up your monkey spirit!!!!cheer up
you won't be alone...you still have monkey beside.....monkey......monkey......tough.....yeah..oVoo

haix....im waiting...

strange > close > strange

friend > best friend or soulmate > strange

argh......whats going on><

isn't all are fine~~how come become this>.<

i don't want any change...can't still for the nice moment??

why wanna change the relationship then just hurt both??

can't get it..haix......

Friendship Forever????Lol==Fake

Who knows what's called forever???And what can be forever??
LOVE??FRIENDS??PROMISES??haha...really make me laugh out loud..==
what a stupid thinking of Forever~..
Till yesterday...only i realize what's forever...its nothing is forever...
People always say love is useless...only friends can along with us all the time..
Maybe love really useless...or maybe friends really will along with us all the time...
before i really believed that even though i lost every thing...even though nobody understand me..
that's still had u as a 10 years best friend will accompany me...this illusion spoiled on yesterday..
a quarrel happened few months ago led us to be stranger..
yesterday i discussed peacefully this problem with u..my stupid thinking of could get a better ending...but its exactly different with my thinking~got a damn SURPRISE answer...
i admit that i did wrong in this matter...but impossible its all my faults what...
how can a person had such nerve to say self didn't do wrong????????
lol=.=its a pore between..tried and tired to fill it up..
when I knew there was no regretting on u,some more blaming other ppl??really disappointed...omg==
how come this world has such 不知所谓 person><
maybe u won't realize how many fault had done...cause there are too much people tolerate to u..and no one tell u the truth...impossible u know the truth,tell u just will lead to strange...i'm too stupid to be straight?or only u can be straight??
its fortunately there is a friend always reminds me my faults...thx so much...wakaka><
feel pity u don't have such friends anymore~i think u won't have so...because u can't accept..
or maybe your friend won't feel u do wrong because u are in her shadow...
u are god?if u are,surely u won't do wrong^^
or maybe u are confident to urself??XD~~~then congratulate u are the best in self thinking...
haha...the pore became a hole...but luckily i didn't fall in it...
because i understand there is nothing to say anymore....

Know A Cute Girl...

 she my friends' sister...

before i know her,she gave me a feel that she is cute even though her brothers always worry of her and think she is problems maker~????

haha...when i know,accurately shoot my my sense..she is really cute..

erm...from her,i get my before shadow...sampat sampat~haha

her words,her attitudes..all are same..

just the different between us are the body saiz@@she is very small ~30++kg only@@i think wind can blows away her~haha...thats why she need her popeye brothers protect~

she is naughty..me too..but she little bit yeng than me~mo

get know her exam results worse compare with before..worse than before me><!!omg~~

chat with her...tell her my experiences..i can get her realize and a decision to improve on next year...

i think she has a same mind with me...day by day,she will develop and independent...

sure she will be mature one day..i hope my confident and hope on her won't spoil..

She

12-11-2010 Bukit Tinggi Jusco~~

Thought will back hometown today...but the end decide get back on tomorrow...
A invitation message to watch movie at jusco@@haix...busy calling other people to join><
the end...the organizer didnt come cause of some reasons....again feel sorry..
i reached there earlier n waiting for them at popular~cant even realize they reach><omg....
I have an excited in the every gathering of us....but today my mood really little bit weird and complicated...haix
can understand that are jokes,but that not the truth what....close??i don't think so...just they always initiative chat with me in the chatbox...lol...omg....maybe u all misunderstand...it can be tolerated la>< 
thought my initiative to u all,then to other also...come on...i treat people depend on the friendships between la><
as examples,those my schoolmates we meet impossible will get it...honestly,i treat them bad..lol...they always say im cool n apathy sight to them==haix~~i don't care for their comments caused i don't think they are my real friends...thats all......can understand its just ur funny joke...not intent to tease....just ignore it?or really don't be too friendly...tolerate it........

eventhough that....we enjoy watching two movies in one day la><the cinema damn cool><make me tremble although with jacket@@
back home at 10.30pm++hoho~~~ 

11-11-2010~~Surprise to u

finally><it reached><argh~~~~
i was too panic on the one day before><omg.....slept at cousin house and suddenly woke up in midnight><
that day,i whole day no had appetite to eat><haix~~~


i reached hinhua approximate 6.45pm....kiat ming said he would arrived earlier to book seats...but i was earlier then him==~~~
scared would lost the way in hua hua....really no dare to walk in the school alone><follow Lele to the canteen...omg><^(oo)^ at there@@he discover me with a response:"ei??u come??"lol><this not i wanted to be...i planned to let them discovered me when the concert start><haix...spoil already la><but it never mind....
Some klang guys only met me when i got in to the hall~~haha...i don't know what they felt when saw me at that moment...
Enjoyed watching the concert...i no dare to send them the flowers i make in front so many audiences...until Eunice perform...they persuaded me to sent her the flower directly...omg...i did it...
At the end of the concert,i only sent the others flowers left...haix...another bouquets sctually wanna for zheyan><but her performance canceled...haix....
Enjoyed taking photos after the concert...but upset when only i knew a friend was waiting for me to take photo but i already back home...really sorry for that...


Conclusion...it was fun n awesome...i don't know is it they surprised or not...
perhaps its unimportant so..or its just redundant for alll my plannings n preparings???
or all these are negligible compare with other receiving~?maybe yes,maybe no...
Take it easy...just i was willing to do all these....

I was panic

on11-11-2010,hinhua private school organized a guitar concert...
i knew this long time ago..some of my friends would performed that day..just thought no transport sure cant go....no had the idea to go also....
until the few days before it,a klang guy..i think now he became my friend already la@@
he asked me attend it secretly to give my klang friends surprise~i thought its impossible to attend...
one night...i dreamed about i was finding the ways to attend it...lol
next day,called my cousin,Karen to fetch go her bukit tinggi house on 10-11-2010~~then i would meet another klang friend,Lele at bukit tinggi jusco...then she would fetch me go to the school...she is my old classmate's girl friend...a very cute girl...
i asked many hinhua students for the tickets...but all were sold out....what to do><luckily Lele's friend,called Eunice got  extra tickets for Lele and me~really thanks her so much><
I had informed some friends i might to attending...they helped me arranged n kept the secret...
I got to make 2 bouquets of flowers for two girls n 2 stalks for 2 boys....
This was the first time i make these><really hard....
Burnt 2 days midnite oil to prepare all of these><i was so nervous...worried they would discover my surprise plan><arr><led to insomnia...
got to make IMPOSSIBLE TO BE POSSIBLE

Love Tutti^^

arr><!!!!finally 5th november 2010 reached><!!~~

yeah yeah yeah~~so excited@@we go for piano lessons early in the morning~then klang guys will meet us at music centre in noon~

we out for breakfast+lunch before they reach~hungry over time then cant eat things so><jz eat half piece of sandwich n share a mushroom soup with joen@@

we finish meal at 1.30pm~~i stay at the piano room n cant realize they reach~

when i going to find joen at the in front there....i am so shocked for so many people sat at there@@but i didnt see tk tutti ppl accompany them...only teacher n zheyan chat with them~

all of tk guys stay in a small room...lol..

i sit on a chair v them but i also little bit shy la..haha...so funny~luckily WEN SHAN is also sampat po like me~i start the conversation with her then break the ice~haha....maybe i really to brave to join uncloser ppl or maybe i am beh hiao paiseh.......haix.......

we discuss about the first place going to visit~erm...there is little bit trouble but at the end we decided go to monkey hill~~

my god><we walk up to the hill n i lead wrong the ways@@luckily we get the ways so =...really a hot day.

we try to get down the hill by train without tickets><so xia shui....really ashamed when the man ask us to show tickets~~~haha...but i think its funny~they realize my laugh is weird n keep suan me....haix...but my laugh really like that since before~luckily both liats no so silent as my guessing la~~just too polite compare v me@@keep suan them then feel that all of u are friendly and easy to join^^

the seats of the van unenough to carry 11ppl of us@@...zheyan n shiban volunteer to stay at centre..shiban learn piano at there.We get ready to start the way to the 2nd place..we go to the paddy field at sekinchan~~haha><try to jump n capture it...damn stupid~i jump like a frog@@most funniest is skgdog's slipper drop into water....lalalalala~~~really laugh till stomach pain~

the last~~~~we go to the beach near vicky's home><~~~its awesome to have fun there~haha

all ppl so crazy to take photos n jump there~johnson phone so pro to capture~~so clear~~but so pity,he used of the battery  for photo shooting~~haha...stupid~~curi curi record us on the beach><but i admit i so stupid to use his phone...=.=keep get their laugh~~but i enjoy la~~~wakaka~~i also curi curi to capture them~~^^xixi...the soil is sticky at the sea bank><stick on our legs~~yer....yucky so much><

Saw the most siao today...his foot get cut n blood...hope he is ok la~~the dusk very nice at beach~~we take damn a lot of photos at there^^xixi~~

7pm><its the time to back><we all so <bu she de>haix....back to centre to wash our legs~~

after few time,klang guys get ready to leave here><haix.....i follow their car to go to KS~~

a pack that is for all of them...i pass it to johnson n ask him open it when i get down from van><OMG!!!both kiats are stupid@@actually i want to give them surprise de lo...haiya...but let they recover the pack...luckily they didnt open it first~~~haha...

enjoy the day with all of you~~hope have the next chance also~

xixi><all sampat~~
the conclusion i get from u::::

WenShan~~funny and yeng girl~
Saw~~siaosiao n pro to act sissy~~
Skydog~~siaosiao also n geli v Saw~love self capturing
Johnson~~less words lo~bully me also@@
Thomas~~too polite n keep in smiling...finally boom me at the end~~
ShiBan~~addicted to sing n music~~


its so nice..but kiatming cant attend so...
eventhough that~thx u all...our friendship get foster and wish it continue long long time~~~

Few Days Ago@@

05-11-2010~~the date of our TUTTI gathering~~

few days before the gathering,i was too excited for it and led to insomnia==haha....an idea appeared^^the next day,i got ready to make the board...so funny i need to get know their favourite colours~~haha~

ask them their loving colours and lied them its just a test~~haha...sorry for the lie la~

i didnt ask someboddies n guess myself to choose the colours for them lo..hope they will like it...so panic to prepare all of that><i no sure who would attend...haix....made all of the boards till 5am@@really tired....not i willing to slept late actually....but,really no have enough time to prepare all of those~><too much~~

Although it was tired...but i enjoyed it n hope all of guys loved it...My did really rough@@haix~

4th november,got ready all he materials to do 2 cards..started it after my tuition,it was approximately 6pm@@used off energy to cut the board...my wrists was pain..did wrongly many things..T.T..waste time also~need to cut some papers to hide the worn put parts..that why the cards are weird@@

at8:30pm..i rushing to visit friends cause of her father passed away....erm....reach home at 11:00pm...continued doing my works...haix....thats my 1st time to make 3D one><i threw away 3 before the both good made one@@arr><my fingers became hard n no feelings for too long time hold the knife tightly....the candles were unstable...haha....pasted some supports behind it@@weird...

the clock was working non-stop~it meant the time was passing...wrote the greetings words then decorated it~its already 4.30am@@alamak><my eyes almost closed down but need to tahan it><use manilla cards to wrap all the things@@finally i get rest at 5:15am...@@

Speechless

Erm....it was approximately 1 week i didnt refresh my world~~
Not because of i'm busy...not because  of other reasons to prohibit me to sign in my blog~~
No reasons,no excuses~
Blog acts as a good place to let us shout out our feelings,n give us a chance to share our happiness nn unhappiness with those are concerning us.
Recently,i really  non feelings to share out...it jz because of i seem like a log to face all the problems around me...
Is it call peace???shock for my own attitudes==somethings suppose i will be response bombastic...but i calm all the times...
I cant recognize weather it was good or bad...
it doesn't my true soul.......then should  I peace???i dunno...

MY PMR RESULT

How my sejarah result><..TT

i really afraid will C..yesterday i compare the answer with my friend..

i seem like get C><

oh my goodnes...when i ask my mum of this..

she listen the word of C...i think sure she disappointed at that momment.....

all the subjects we sat,my cousin confident to get A...

how about me...last time both of us also get full A in UPSR..

Now i become worse even THE WORST....

All my Friends all confident.but my confidence are spoil!!!!!

Math is the simplest subject for me..sure A one~

But why i scare now.....SHIT!!!

start my blog life

Today is my 1st day to activate a blog~~

erm...i still a new member n still dunno how to decorate my blog~~

haha..anyway~~i try my b3st to customize it